Insight of the Day:
I ran into someone last night while I was out having a “Daniela Moment” who we (Niela and I) have known for a long time. After talking for a few minutes the subject turned to why do I not go out and am not “social” these days.
For anyone who knows me, I’ve never been that social, ever! I’m not a fan of people. I truly dislike people because throughout my life, people have failed me in one way or another. Outside of my family (The Fab Five: Ray Sr., Sherry, Shanyce, Kyra and myself), I always felt uncomfortable meeting people and hanging out in public with them. Daniela was the Social Butterfly of my life. She was the one who loved having people around and going places with tons of people. Not me. While Daniela was here, I followed her and went places and did social things because I wanted to be around her; not people! Now with her not here, I’m back to being that old anti-social me, =D! Yep, he’s back, guys!
My life is very simple! Well, I try to have it be that way. I only deal with things that matter. It’s funny, I try to find ways to figure out how to express this, but after Daniela passed, I have to deal with this major void in my and our children’s lives. We just want to live! That means, we just want to live our lives and work at getting back near normal. Before she passed, our family was preparing with relocating our family to the south. We were leaving Wisconsin and all of the bull crap we had been caught up in. crap like lack of employment opportunities, back stabbing so-called friends, trifling family members and missing our oldest son/little bro.
The idea was to get back to simple. That’s it. We didn’t want to be tossed into other people’s drama or have their issues overflow into our world. Well, it was a great idea, but then March 8th, 2012 happened and flipped our world upside down.
Today as I try to steer our family towards normal many of you have been very thoughtful in that and we truly appreciate it. My house is my sanctum and it’s the only place I find peace and comfort. I know we don’t have or invite visitors, but that’s just my anti-socialism. Thank you all for talking with me before you come through, it lowers my assh*le meter in people just popping up without communicating with me. Many of you remind me of Daniela and it spirals my spirits towards crashing. We thank all of our family and friends for giving us our privacy.
We are trying to get out of here for some R & R down in Texas. Headed to Galveston Island....
