"Late Night @ Home..."

Hey family!!!! I'm back home after a long day hanging out with my 10-year old daughter, N'kya. We ran down to Kenosha then came back to checkout a few car dealerships and even went to the Super-Walmart in Germantown. Now, we're back home. N'kya is asleep while I'm here watching UFC Relaoded. Mark Hunt just destroyed Ben Rothwell. Okay!?! No, I just can't sleep. I hope everyone has a great night tonight sleeping comfortably and relaxing. 

Talk with you all soon. GN!!!

"Traveling Shoes"

Living is learning and exploring. This means, I haven’t been truly living since March 8^th happened. I have to get away. Not in the idea of leaving anyone or anything, but rather the idea of getting away from the stagnation of staying in one place allowing the devastation of sadness and grief to overwhelm me.

I need to get away and visit the world. A close friend of mine travels the world and has told me I need to travel. I’ve been thinking about taking his advice and getting moving. I would love to go to Galveston, TX or Torrance, CA. The only place out of the country I’ve always wanted to go has been Brazil. The home of Gracie Jiujitsu. Pretty interesting. 

“New Motivations…”

When my wife first passed, I was spinning out of control. I didn’t know what to do…I couldn’t get focused and just wanted to explode. Each hour and each day that went by caused for greater heartache and pain. I’ve never felt for someone the way I did/do for my wife, Daniela. I didn’t think I would be able to continue with the elections, but my family and friends pushed and pulled me through it. Each day was a rollercoaster of emotions and the fact of having to “be strong” for our four children, I was a walking mess. 

Now with our family moved and the elections over, I want to get focused on raising the children as she would want. I have decisions to make pertaining to maintaining our lifestyle and culture against career and finances. I need to be available for the kids and spend even more time with them supporting them through their academic careers and social activities.

My question to myself is simply, “What now?”

There are a few ideas I have and possible paths to take for the family. One path is an idea I share with a great friend (Ty Baldwin), which focuses on youth and youth development. With nearly 20-years in Youth/Human Services, I feel it’s time to develop and launch these programs and ideas to assist Milwaukee/Milwaukee County. Currently, we are working on launching the Milwaukee Economic Development Group (or MEDG). This group will be made up of talented and experienced members of our community, who will come together and develop programs through proper planning to help others in the Milwaukee Community.  

The starting line up is being developed as we read!!!   

What's New...

Today, I relax a bit and reflect on the achievement of completing our move from one rest to the next, which lays the foundation of my life “After Happily Ever After” in this existence.

In the next few weeks, I will lead a small team of LAN Analysts and other operators to launch websites and blogs pertaining to economic growth and development. It is necessary to understand I am searching for new and exciting ideas for this purpose. Also, we will be creating a foundation in my wife’s name to continue her work and dedication to volunteering and helping others.

We will keep you posted…

"Slow and Easy"

I'm trying to take each day slow and easy while at the same time trying to come to grips with what happened. Why it happened? The pain tends to fade a bit, but then it comes back with a sharp intensity and stinging.
Funny...as much as it hurts, I think I need the pain to remind her how much I love and miss her.


- Posted By Radolph "Ray" Matthews

Location:Milwaukee, WI

PAIN....

My body is tired and drained. My mind is functioning in two separate, but equal realities. One as a father and husband providing for my family and the second running a political campaign. I don’t know which reality is my actual truth. I’ve just decided to go with the flow.  

Rock...

Okay, World!!!