Good morning World. I just wanted
to take this opportunity to jot down a few things and let you all know what’s
been on my mind. I have not been feeling like myself. Granted, it’s mostly due
to my way of dealing with the change, which occurred in my life this past
spring. I wonder if anyone knows how to deal with the loss of a Soul Mate.
First, let me start by thanking those of you who have been so supportive in
making sure, I am good. Many people give their condolences and well wishes, but
a few of you have been VERY supportive. I just want to thank you for your
continuous reinforcement and faith in me.
A friend told me to remember to be
true to myself and never disrespect the memory of my wife. Well, that has been
what I have been doing out of pure fear. Fear of being alone had caused me to
disrespect both my relationship and myself with my wife. I thought I could
handle my family’s loss if I could replace my wife in one-way or another. It
took a very intense internal look within my heart to understand there will “NEVER”
be anyone able to replace Daniela. It’s harsh, but so true. For me, the woman
who created and developed me can never be replaced. It was that internal
self-assessment where I found the truth I was trying to avoid; there will never
be another Daniela.
There are people out there who care
about the children and I and who are truly concerned about us, but I ask you to
understand, we are good. We are great actually due to the high caliber of
preparation, in which Daniela set for the children and I. If I pulled you into
the chaos and you became entangled in something you were not ready for, I
sincerely apologize. It is not our time. Not our time to interact in any way. I
thank you for your caring and passion, but the culture of my family is not conducive
to you being part of our lives. Those of you who “really” knew Daniela and who “really”
know the Matthews Family, we see you as family; Always!!
Once again, I apologize for mixing those of you up in the
chaos, which is Ray Matthews as I try to re-stabilize myself and my life.
Thank you:
Kraig Watts, Robert Watts, Gary Watts, Marriah Harris, Me-Me
Carter, Dawn Berger, Paul Mackey, Andrew Gains, Steve Brown, The Whole Matthews
Family (MKE & Texas), Lane Turowski (3062 Tattoo Gallery), Dave & Kelli
Rosenmarkle (Gracie Barra WI), Jessica Tess, Red Schafer MMA, Fat Boy Jiujitsu
Team, DSM Consulting Group Team, etc.
The above people have been there and make sure I’m good!
Thank you all for understanding the insanity, which I am currently spinning
around in. thank you for your not letting me fall apart. I love you all.
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