"WELCOME TO 2013.... REFOCUSED!!!"

Well,as I write this Blog entry, we are entering into a new year. I can’t rememberanything I was thinking about 2012 this time last year. I know I had made thedecision to run for political office and Daniela and the kids were totallybehind me. Nothing more, really, it’s common for people to make plans orpromises on what they are going to do or change in the coming year. Honestly, Idon’t want to do that. I want to really get on track and get back to pushingthe family forward. I guess that’s my task. To get to where we were as a familyand push the kids forward towards their potential and destinies.

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Findingprimary employment is my number one focus right now.  I need to find a daytime 9-to-5, Monday through Friday jobwith an insurance packet. Of course the kids need proper insurance and dentalcare. Hahaha… Daniela was huge on making sure the babies were protected thatway.

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Funny,I’m bringing the New Year in watching the last season marathon of ‘The WalkingDead.’ This is the episode when Lori is killed. Wow!

Welcome2013…

“Ipledge my heart and soul (life force) to my children and the memory of my wifeand best friend Daniela to be the greatest and most understanding andsupportive father I can be to our babies.

Ipledge and promise to never forget her and love her as I did when she was herewith us.

I pledgeto live my life in this New Year and forward to the fullest and most becausethat’s how she lived.

I willput no one or nothing ahead of our family and will do the best I can possiblydo to reach the goals she and I set for our family.

Myword is my bond… 3333xInfinity!!!!!”

As Iwrite this pledge, people are shooting their guns around me in the alleys andside streets and I remember the idea and pledge of being a father and protectorof my family. I am forged with doing what I need to do to get us where we needto be to live comfortably enough for them to reach and exceed their family andindividual goals.

Dayone starts now….    

RM

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UFC 155: Jim Miller vs. Joe Lauzon Recap

Here we go… after UFC 155 and watching Cain get his title back in smashing fashion and being witness to one of the most hard fought fights of UFC history, we are creeping into a new year. 2013 promises to be a total barnburner in the MMA and Jiujitsu Worlds. During this weekend while watching 155, Fat Boy Jiujitsu Correspondents were in house and front row for all of the action. My pick of “Favorite Fight” was, of course, the three round bloodbath between tow of my favorite UFC/MMA Fighters today.

Jim Miller v. Joe “J-Lo” Lauzon

These are two of the most awesome submission specialists in the game today. Jim Miller has awesome wrestling and is a Jiujitsu Black Belt. Lauzon’s Jiujitsu is off the meter and doesn’t mind going to the ground. Awesome kids and I believe their 2013 will be pretty busy.

"Technology At Matthews 19th Street..."

My youngest sister and my youngest child are so much alike. I was there today and watched their interaction with one another. Whoa... This is how they get down.
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"Tal alma Solitária ... "

"Sem mim família, não sou nada. Sem você ao meu lado, eu sinto que nada!"

Many days, I wish everything could go back to the way they were. When I was a good and strong man. A man with purpose and direction. A man who fulfilled the dreams and hopes of the woman he loved and who loved him. Before the dark cloud covered my heart and soul.

"FLESH OF MY FLESH..."

There I stood, staring into her eyes.

Standing on that concrete porchwith no roof, looking into her eyes.

Lost in Daniela’s beautifulBrown eyes.

Why she was nervous?

She, moving back-and-forth, andrubbing her hands together as her white teeth clenched down on the left side ofher lower lip.

Her long dark silky hair pulledback in a convenient ponytail.

Her bright complexion, smoothand delicious and those soothing eyes hypnotized me.

Traffic moving up and down thestreet while neighborhood kids ride bicycles on the sidewalk,

The smell of barb-a-que saucefloats from the backyard across the street.

Daniela’s eyes, those softBrown eyes watered nervously.

I reached down for her wrists.

Holding her wrists, I wiggleddown to her hands.

Holding her soft hands, Iasked, “What’s wrong, baby?”

She closed those beautifulBrown eyes.

So nervous. So uncertain.

What could it be?

Daniela opened her eyes andsaid, “I’m pregnant.”

The four faces of myforefathers appeared…

 Ed…

Andrew…

Eddie…

Radolph…

My forefathers, fourgenerations of men; man-child, pillars to our foundation.

Standing in front of me.  

Judgment Day as a man… as ahusband…as a provider…as a father.

I created,

God did.

Daniela, my Earth.

Nature/ Nurture my seed fromknowledge to born,

Give birth to my resurrection,

Give my resurrection my name.

Flesh of my flesh, he will beblood of my blood.

Kindred to our forefathersacross the sands of time.

Footprints across time.

Time calculated by quantumdisparities rippled through that path in time.

My son, it is your time.

"SELLING BLOCK..."

What is your worth, standing on urban street corners lost for purpose in herds of indigent wasted youth? What can you offer the world besides fashion tips like the usefulness of belts and buckles? Fiction causes you to twist reality with fantasy when your reality is actually a fallacy created by someone whose dreams and fantasies allow him to manipulate…you.

Come on nigga, be that which you accept to be. Nigga only means savage and living useless existences while bring nothing to the masses make you…a nigga. You’d might as well stand on that selling block cause your block ain’t yours. It’s owned by the same folks that owned the selling blocks that your forefather and his fathers stood on.

Hair, check…

Teeth, check…

Balls, none.

You have no balls due to four hundred years of self-mutilation and genocidal thinking and behaviors. So stand there on the block. Sell your balls and your empty soul…that slave is more of a man than you…NIGGA!

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Ray M.